Waking Up

Sometimes it feels like you wake up, and you look around you and you see that your life is a lie. People around you are not who you thought they were, they make choices that disappoint you. Make you cry. Make you want to scream. And sometimes you wish you never woke up, then you think of all the times where it was like you were in that groggy, half asleep state and you think you know what is going on, you sense something is not right. You see how you are different than others around you. And you wonder. And then you realize what is going on. But you also realize that you can't say the words out loud, because they are not yours to say. So you wonder. And wonder. And keep wondering. Then that day comes. One that changes your life. And you again, want to cry, want to scream. You want to blame. You want to cause pain. But you can't. You can't. So you do the only thing you can do. Love. And Love. And keep loving.