Sunday, August 21, 2011

Stake Dance

Imagine the last song of the night...a slow dance
With the boy you liked
Your hands linked-sharing the same connection
Both of your hearts are beating
Beating full of adrenaline, to the rhythm of the music
Keeping you swaying, keeping you smiling
And nothing could be more perfect

Accept one thing
The awkwardness

And though it may seem silly
I write to you in hope that you will reply to this one request
Answer this one question

What are good questions/topics (past the whole getting to know you stage-cause we are past that) that people can discuss (hopefully more meaningful questions)??

Now imagine that night
Everything is perfect
We ask the questions,
We discuss the topics
And it really was the best last song
The best night
Imagine that...

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Teams??

My Team





Friday, August 12, 2011

Tangled





I love the song they sing while the lights are floating
My favorite part :)

Secrets

There are secrets we have
And we must keep them

We tell no one
Either we are afraid of what they will say
Or what they won't
Some are so dark and deep
We are scared of them ourselves
Empty weight
Like rocks in a backpack
Soon we either forget them
Or know we never will

There are secrets we have
And we must keep them

For a friend
For a lover
Even for a family member
It could hurt
So we keep them inside
And cover them with useless trash
Like a picture
On the outside, appearing just right
While on the inside everything is but picture perfect

There are secrets we have
And we must keep them

There may be a moment
When things seem right
To admit
To broadcast
To confess
It seems easy
Like abc
But it never is
No-it never is

These are the secrets we have
And we must keep them

Secrets
Memories
Thoughts
Ideas
Opinions
They make up who we are
And unfortunately, sometimes, who we are not
We keep them because we also have love
And do not desire to hurt
In the right moment
We may jump or take a picture

Because these are the secrets we have
And we will keep them

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Remember??

Bleeding Love Leona Lewis

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

BONDS.....or UNITY???

There are things that create bonds:

Apples to Apples (CANADA-i still don't get that?)
Psych
Rosting Marshmallows (I won...without a doubt!)
Cutting through who-knows-who's backyard (We're all Mormon right?!)
Telling scary stories (Scritch Scratch)
Dressing up like pioneers
Baking (Did you see how many cookies we went through in 1 night?)
Hiking for longer than we slept (Dang-Kirsten was so lucky!!)
Eating popcorn
Making awkward conversation (gee-lets not do that again! k?)
You going somewhere? (Uhhh...yeah)

Though not necessarily in this order...

Thursday, July 21, 2011

SONG

I love this song...listen to it :)
It makes me feel really strong
Like I can get through what ever happens

Skyscraper Demi Levato

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence as it’s ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There’s nothing left of me

Chorus
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper (2x)

Verse 2
As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken
But I’m standing on my feet
Chorus
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
And go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper (2x)

Bridge
Go run run run
I’m gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear (yeah ohh)
Go run run run
Yeah it’s a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

Chorus
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper (ohhhh)
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Divorce

A YEAR
How has it been this long? Since that one Saturday afternoon that started it all? That one Saturday that seemed to fold, squish, and then finally, stomp on my life.
A YEAR
How is it possible to come so far? For so much to change-for everything to be different? Adjusting to new family, new homes, new friends.
A YEAR
Why is it that something can be such a blur but so vivid at the same time. Like time flashed before your eyes without hardly any of your knowledge, but it is still there. Each tear, each angry, confused thought impossible to forget
A YEAR
And though I am not sure about very much. I am sure that, although everything has changed, that my life has been flipped upside down, then right side up, then upside down again, I have a family where ever I am. I have friends who support and love me. And I have a church that even if everything else changed, will stay the same and will build me up, help me stand a little taller each day.
TIME
So now, I don't count years. I don't want to waste a time in confusion, in anger, or even in sadness. No. I will count each day that passes, and thank God for it. Thank God for the family, no matter how messed up it is, the friends, even if they are a bit crazy, and the church that is hard sometimes, but is better in the long run, that I have. That I can call mine

Questions

YES
I live in Utah
I am a twin
I have a facebook
I am Mormon
I have been on Trek
I love to read

NO
I don't have one home
I don't have a job
I don't have enemies (dang, i don't think so!)
I can't drive
I don't hate anyone
I don't have tons of money

Why these questions....of all questions??

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Daisies?





















Is it that time again?

That time of daisies?
Of table 4?
Of incognito?
Of code names?

But maybe this time, instead of daisies
There will be swimming pools
Chocolate chip cookies
Water balloons
Stake centers
Hot rod/Wringer movies
Lowes Extreme Air Sports
Orange Leaf trips

Despite the stressful, and quite awkward encounters
Despite that I just moved here
Despite that I am still learning everyone's names

I am excited
I am stoked

Because a new age is dawning
An age full of daisies

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Good Times

There are some things you can't take away
Things that are permanent.
Things we will have to live with forever

Memories are all we can count on now.
With people dieing
Moving
Getting sick

So for me,
London and Steve will live on always
Bethy and Darcy will forever be my fantasy
HMB's.... whether they are honorary or hot, one will be mine in time
And I might not even meet any hot italian guys,
Being incognito for Teddy, Pinocchio, and Willy
Urging along Teddy and Casey
Table 4, will always be just that. Table 4
Good Times
Good Times

As we keep memories in the forefront of our mind
We create new ones
Ones with our new dad or mom
With our new brothers and sisters
Friends, church and house

But ones that add to our store of memories
Not ones that replace
And these too, are permanent




Monday, May 16, 2011

Advanced Recital

Watching wistfully
From the side
Concentrated staring
Totally enhanced

Wanting it
Wanting it bad

The urge is almost to strong
My heart beats hard
My feet twitch
My brain working over time

Wanting it
Wanting it bad

Hearing the music
Seeing them there
Wishing it was me
Alongside her

Wanting it
Wanting it bad

Wanting to twirl
To glide
To posse
To arabesque

Wanting to dance
And never stop

Monday, May 9, 2011

English Class

You know those days when everything seems to go wrong, then there is this one thing that just makes it all okay?

Or those little moments where you meets someone's eyes, and you both share a joke that no one else is getting

Or those, "We understand" laughs

Even the "You're not worth it" thoughts

How about the classes where you honestly just love it (admit it-everyone does) when someone does something stupid because you are just ready to kill yourself out of boredom

The dread of hearing the bell, knowing you have to go home to the load of homework that you have ignored all weekend

Or when you have the Calvin and Hobbes moments and you ponder the meaning of life

The anticipation of wearing that dress that you bought


The sad thing is, this basically describes my thought process during English Class...yup...

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Wicked

Defying Gravity

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down

Ahhh...love this song :D

Monday, April 18, 2011

Lash Out

Why is it that when people are super stressed and angry about some unknown thing (possibly made-up) they take it out on some unknowing person? They always seem to lash out. Flip the mood for everyone else. Rather than taking care of their problems in a logical and smart way?

How does this lashing out help? How does it make it any better?

Let me tell you-it doesn't.

It doesn't.

Instead, it tears people apart.

It does.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Seasons

It's like someone's shuffled your deck of cards, and you have a chance to draw a whole new hand, and everything's fresh and you get to have another start at making new friends.

-Madeleine

Its kinda true, ya know? Like, I get a whole new chance to start life. I guess I'm even a little bit lucky.

The thing is everyone is a little bit right. Mom is a little bit right about how I will always have my family, no matter where i go. Madeleine, about how i can really just start over. Ross, how it will be fun. Even Ecclesiastes, about how for everything there is a season. And all these little rights, i guess, add up to one big right. So maybe, this will work. Maybe this is okay. Maybe this really is right.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Do you ever wonder

Do you ever wonder why things are happening the way they are? Like, suddenly, something happens to disrupt the silence, the peace you have. And so all of a sudden, it seems as if you are thrown into a tornado, where nothing you can do or say will change anything, and the best chance you have of surviving is just going with the flow, doing what you are supposed to, because you don't want to do anything that might disrupt anything else, get you thrown into another tornado?

Do you ever wonder how annoying boys can be...but yet we girls put up with it anyways, because we fall head over heels for them, despite their imperfections. this is almost sad, but at the same time, doesn't it seem reassuring? people have been falling in love for centuries, so, its like, reassurance in being the same, in unchangingness (is that a word?)

Do you ever wonder why sometimes it feels like you're living in a dream? and any minute now, you're going to wake up, and someone will be yelling in your face, "Just Kidding!"?? How sometimes it feels like you're living on the edge, and any minute you might just fall off?

Do you ever wonder why soldiers like Gunnery Sergeant John Basilone give away their lives for us? When it would have been easier to stay at home? Or like Major Dick Winters, giving away his life at home to save groups of soldiers, to lead them and to help win the war? Putting their lives at risk, only as to save ours? Why heroes like them hardly get the recognition they deserve? And while celebrities get more attention than they do, the soldiers out on the field are saving everyones lives, without the intention of getting recognition or fame and glory?

So here is my proposal, when everything seems like it is about to go down the drain, soldiers are dieing, people are suicidal, not falling in love, unsettling the silence, don't give up. push to the end. because even though i wonder if there is ever going to be that thing that sets everything back into place, that makes it normal again, im sure its going to happen. but we need to stand strong, stand united. Because in the end, all that will matter is love. So love.

Monday, March 28, 2011

That should be me

That Should Be Me Lyrics

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my
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heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,

Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3
Never should've let you go
That should be me!!<3

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Shoes

You see that shoe.
And you think of how that shoe is just like you.

Dirty around the edges,
Not perfect
But a good fit
Not perfect
Yet still your second favorite color
Not perfect
But still pretty cute

And you think of how the shoe is just like you

Taking you places
Pushing you forward
Even
When
You'd rather sit
Lay down
Or just stand

And you think of how the shoe is just like you

Bringing adventure
Trial
Hardship
Obstacles
But coming in packages,
So you get
Friendship
And
Love

And you think of how the shoe is just like you

Sometimes making mistakes
Stubbing a toe
Staining the leather
And you wonder
What makes up for it all?
The days i spend shining
My shoes?
Or the days i spend shining
Her shoes?

And you think of how the shoe is just like you

Everyday
Trying
Sometimes
Falling short
Sometimes
Not good enough

And you think of how the shoe is just like you

Always living
And
Always walking



Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Ever After

"Call me Henry."

"Henry."